I was going to publish one of my drafts, which is just sitting in my draft box. There are days when I feel a burst of inspiration whirling through the windows of my brain and I suddenly feel the urgency to sit and think and type and feel. And then they sit in the lovely draft box.
Then there are days when I stare at the screen. My mind as blank as the blaring white screen and yet I feel the need to write.
I just don't know how to put the heaviness of what I'm feeling into words. There's just a lot of "stuff" that is swirling through my head lately. Big decisions, little decisions, irritations, and limitations.
Then I met up with a gal pal this afternoon. She knows me well. For some reason God has always put us through similar life situations around the same time. Not ahead of me, where she has words of graceful wisdom, but with me. Right through the thick of it so she can encourage and relate.
She doesn't have the answers.
I certainly don't have the answers.
However, God does.
Although the answers to many of my questions and uncertainities at the moment have not been answered yet, I know they will. To be honest, even if they are not clearly brought to light, I know that I'm in good hands.
I'm grateful for a God who knows that all the "stuff' that is swirling in my head is too much for me to even verbalize. It is just there heavily weighing on my heart for the moment. Sometimes that is just where it has to sit. I'm okay with that.
But, then He blesses me with with the opportunity to spend an afternoon with my friend as we watch our littles run and play. While they are preoccupied with slides and a crazy game of prisoners, I get to listen as my friend articulates everything that I've been feeling lately.
Not that i'm glad that she's in that spot too, but in a selfish way, I'm relieved to know
that I'm not the only one.
It is a reminder for me to not carry my burdens alone. I often worry that voicing any concerns will burden others or put people off.
However, friendship does not come prefabricated. It requires a lot of brick layering. When we lay our burdens down, one by one, we are building the structure of friendship. It is made of many bricks. It is strong. It can't be easy blown away by storms or destroyed by flames. It can withstand the test of time.
Share each other's burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ.